It is said that depression is taking its toll alongside the coronavirus epidemic. Fortunately, this terrible disease has not affected me yet. I am an optimist in life and rarely fall into negative thoughts, but it does not mean that such thoughts do not happen.
Every night before going to sleep, I was doing a so-called “examination of conscience”. I analyzed the past day and tried to write down negative thoughts and what they were about. I am glad that there were relatively few of them. Most often they concerned my health, e.g. “I have a fever, what if it’s covid” or work, e.g. “I think I have not performed well enough”.
I wanted the postcard to turn out optimistic. After all, negative thoughts for me are an exception, not a rule. That is why I decided to depict them against the sunny background full of good energy.
Klaudia’s postcard is much more detailed than mine. It illustrates selected reasons for negative thoughts. It is a pity that the spiral does not show positive thoughts for comparison. But I know it would take a lot of work. After all, as Klaudia wrote on the reverse, positive moments happened much more frequently.
Everyone has negative thoughts and bad moments – so do I. Fortunately, those bad times are much less frequent than the moments of joy, excitement and pleasure. Since I do not monitor bad emotions on a daily basis, I was curious about the results of this observation, which I will probably not repeat in the future.
I observed negative thoughts on an ongoing basis and wrote them down in a notebook on my phone or in a book calendar. In addition, in the evening I checked if I had missed something.
When I started cleaning and summarizing the data, it turned out that not all negative emotions were the same. Sometimes I felt sad, sometimes helpless, sometimes angry. I pictured it as different “smileys”. I also observed that last week I felt bad emotions in almost every aspect of my life: at work, in relationships with others, in my relationship with myself or because something happened or went wrong in the world.
Unfortunately, my postcard looks like a series of misfortunes. In fact, there were many, many more good emotions!
I really liked that Jakub approached the topic of negative thoughts positively and showed them along with the multitude of good moments. I am glad that the sun is shining and warms the worst moments in life.